I loved reading about all your comments about how many vacation days you have. That’s why I like to read blogs from people in different countries: I like to learn and know about how you live and how things are done in your country.
You might remember I signed up for a 10K run this month. Well this run was yesterday and I didn’t go. Reason: I’ve lost motivation and passion for running and confidence in my capability for running.
This has started after I did not finish the half marathon. At first I said “oh well, I’ll finish next time” and tried to put it behind me. But the mind can play dirty tricks and a little voice kept saying the past 3 weeks: “you can’t do this, you will never run a half marathon, you’re weak, you have no perseverance to do this”. And I let the little voice win.
My birthday is next Sunday and I’m turning 43. Last year I thought I would have run a half marathon before my 43th birthday and I would be at my target weight. But neither happened. I’m no where near my target for both.
When it comes to perseverance I do know I have that when it comes to running, I just need to find my motivation back. What helped was that I made a new training schedule last Saturday for the half in October. I’m starting with that tomorrow. What doesn’t help is that my elbow injury still isn’t over, I can’t lift heavy things and because of that I still haven’t started weight training. I hope to start it this week and at the least next week.
Perseverance and reaching target weight is not a good combination in my book. I always start motivated but after 2 or 3 weeks I get careless and slowly start eating more again. With all the running I’ve done up till April 23th that wasn’t a big deal because I could maintain my weight. I don’t feel fine in my body at the moment. I hate my upper arms and my belly. Especially my belly feels uncomfortable these days.
But enough is enough and I’m going to take action. Tomorrow I start with my new running/workout schedule. Because of my birthday coming up and a bbq next Wednesday I’m starting with an eating plan next Monday. I’ve done this plan before and it worked. It’s a book and contains 84 days with daily meal plans. I’m not going to say I do all 84 days but I try to follow it up to the 84 days. All daily plans are between 1250 and 1500 calories. I need to get my portion size straight again.
And maybe, maybe when I turn 44 next year I can say proudly I did run that half marathon and I’m at target weight.
I’m usually a positive person. Usually I can always look on the bright sight of things and I don’t want to finish this post negative so what’s positive:
- Almost 43 and in the best shape of my life
- I may hate my upper arms and my belly but I’ve got great, long, strong legs.
- I did run 20K (12.5 miles), something I never thought I could do.
- I’m healthy, R. is healthy and my family and friends are.
- We’ve got this great little happy dog who always brightens our day.
What do you do when you lose motivation for working out or eating healthy or both?
The Monday Daily Dinner Files:
Tuesday: Noodles with vegetables and meat balls.
Wednesday: chicken with sauce, French fries, salad (went out for dinner).
Monday: minced steak, potatoes, endive with bacon, yellow peppers and cashew nuts.