Warning: long post coming!
The bad news: some of you may have read this already on Facebook or on Amy’s blog today but I had another DNF again yesterday.
Again the heat knocked me down. I had to stop after 1 round and sat down for 10 minutes with my head between my knees because I was dizzy, had a terrible headache and saw black spots.
I decided right there on the spot that I never will run a race again when weather forecast is hot. I don’t sweat a lot and my body can’t handle the heat, it’s all going to my head.
The good news: it was great to do this with Amy.
She was so sweet when she saw I was in trouble. Constantly asking if I was okay. Around the 5K mark we had to decide what to do. It was obvious I wasn’t going to make it and you had to finish the first round within the hour. Amy said she could finish this and I told her to go ahead. She did and she finished great, I watched her finish.
Thank you Amy for helping me and sticking with me, it was great to run with you, you’re such a sweet and lovely friend. We sure will do this again at lower temps that is.
The bad news: I’m not running my first official half marathon in 2 weeks.
I had time to observe the race yesterday while waiting for Amy. People in Europe run fast at races, way faster than in the US as Amy told me. With the times I’m running at every distance, almost 95% of the participants finish before me. Right now I will finish a half in over 2.5 hours and I don’t want that. Most half marathons in Holland 95% of the people who run it cross the finish line around 2 hours-2 hours 15 minutes or faster.
My training in the past couple of weeks doesn’t feel good, I feel I haven’t trained enough. Too many runs were skipped or cut short. Yes I did run my long runs when I had to but they didn’t feel like good runs. I’m not ready to feel confident at the start line.
I don’t enjoy running anymore and I need to find my joy for running again.
I’ve talked with R. last night about it and made the decision to forget about a half marathon for now. I’m not even sure if I will ever run one at this point. It all depends if I’m able to run at a faster pace.
I think I made a mistake when I started running, after every distance I tackled I moved on to the next immediately. It might have been better to work on a better 10K first before moving on to a half marathon, I think.
The good news: I don’t quit running.
I’m taking a week off now, besides the heat my right calf bothered me a lot yesterday, I need to rest it. Next week I will run again. I have two goals:
– Run a 10K in 1:00-1:05 (PR 1:08:23)
– Run a 5K in 00:30 (PR: 00:32:19)
I have to do a lot of work to reach these PR’s but that’s okay I’ve got time.
Maybe this is it and I can’t run faster. If this is the case I’ll accept it but I also won’t run a half marathon ever. But you have to try to find out.
I have planned a training schedule for a 10K that includes pace, tempo and interval runs. I also included recovery weeks after every 3 weeks of training.
I continue doing my workout DVD’s with yoga, strength/weight training and cardio. I believe the combination of these things will make me stronger and faster too.
And (this is going to be the most difficult thing) I need to lose about 8-10 kg (18-22 lbs). Not having to carry this weight around will sure make a difference.
I bet you didn’t see this one coming, did you? I did, this is something I’ve been thinking about for weeks now and after making the decision last night, you can’t imagine how relieved I was. Call me a loser, call me a quitter, I don’t mind/care. I have to do what’s best for me because after all I’m running just for me and no one else. This is the right thing for me to do at this point.
Weekly workout review
Book I’m reading
Tess Gerritsen – Vanish
TV shows I watched last week
Covert Affairs, Two and a half men, Rookie Blue, True Blood, The walking dead, Rizzoli & Isles.
365 days photo challenge 2011
Day 274 – Saturday October 1
Bella went to the doggy hairdresser and looks like a little puppy again.
Day 275 – Sunday October 2
The only pic of Amy and me, Amy looks great, me … mwah (and yes she’s tiny and I’m tall 🙂 )
Highlights of the week
Long weekend of 4 days, great evening with friends on Friday, enjoying running with Amy.